Thanks OE.

Well, I actually had given my resignation, and was depending on a part time job to live while studying. Just need to find another one now. Somehow.

So today I went in to work and was outright bullied by my boss, she was horrid. I was in shock and then had to turn around and go to see a client while trying my darndest to not fall on the floor in tears. I sat in my car after that client and began to have an anxiety attack.....I called my T to try to sort out a meeting this week. I was almost a mess but managed to mostly keep it together. Then off to my next client, and whilst with her there wasa huge bang outside.....she laughed at how much I jumped out of my seat. I started to shake inside and just felt like crying, but had to battle the feelings to control them in fornt of my client. It was soo frikkin hard.

At the end of the day I was at my office and all but one colleague had left and i completely broke down. I am soo embarrassed. I think I opened my emails and there were about 5 from my boss, telling me to do this, that and the other.......it was too much. I just lost it.......

I feel humiliated to have fallen apart, luckily it was in front of someone who I have known for years and she will not tell anyone else.

All of this feels like it comes down to trust, I feel like I have lost trust in everyone again and feel like everyone will hurt me. Even this work colleague, I have known her for ages before I started at this company. Gah!

I hate how I am feeling right now, I'm scared for no real reason. UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!