Jen, read the book of John in the Bible in a newer version so that things are perfectly clear to you. IMO, the book of John is the best description of who Jesus is. Get to know the man... not the religion and all of it's dogmas. Faith is a very personal thing but you need to know Who you're putting your faith in first.

PS I prayed a lot during the worst of my depression and anxiety. I never got any answers then, either, that I could see. I'm a "tough old broad." Maybe God wanted me to exercise my spiritual and mental muscles and develop them.