Okay, so I seem to be at a loss here. I was talking to a friend the other night about a recent breakup (we were engaged and living together, i was and still am devastated). This particular friend and I dated for awhile in college, but we just wanted different things, so it didn't go anywhere, but she's my best friend today.

Anyway, I was doing the usual mopey whiny "why doesn't she love me?" bit, and my friend said "I don't know. Why don't you love me anymore?"

Okay, I know she was just making a point, but I couldn't answer her. The thing is, I think I still do. On one hand, of course I love her, she's my best friend. But I'm talking about romantic love. So is this something I've been carrying with me deep down all these years? Is it something new? Or am I just trying to fill a vacuum left by my ex-fiancee?

I realize only I can answer these questions, but how do I go about figuring this out without cluing in my friend and possibly losing her too?