I'm trying to explore the rationality of the big fears that brought me to the point I have actively considered suicide. IF I can conquer these fears, I think I have a shot in life.

This is a big one -- "they're going to lock me up and throw away the key because I'm crazy". I know they don't do that any more -- it's not like it's 1914, when that happened.

And, I also know, it's pretty much up to me - that would only happen if I went off the deep end and tried to kill myself and failed. Even then, they wouldn't and couldn't lock me up forever, just for a while.

Then, there is the concept that I would be "danger to others" -- I have no worries about that, whatsoever, I'm a pretty nice guy and have no violent tendencies. Never have, never will. Off myself, sure. Hurt someone else, never. So, not a factor.

Now, if I lost it, would my family try and have me declared incompetent? I don't know, they might, I don't know if I can trust them or not. Which sucks, but c'est la vie. I know I would fight that with everything I have.

So, how likely is that to happen? Probably pretty unlikely, I'll give it a 2 on a 0 to 10 scale.

Conclusion: IRRATIONAL.