Pick something that you've lost and work towards getting it back.
I'm not religious in any way shape or form... and while I don't find there to be any meaning to life besides what we give it, I at least take some enjoyment out of the randomness of the universe. It's all pretty strange when you think about it. So why worry about "normal"? (HA! What a hypocrite, I worry about 'normal' all the time even though I really try not to!).
Seeing as "normal" (and I do use quotation marks because what on earth is normal anyway? It's a construct!) isn't really all that possible, it's best to try to learn to like the introvertedness - I'm an introvert (although I act fairly extraverted, but I basically life in my head and need to have my space to relax) and I wouldn't change it. It's also alright to be a loner - I know a lot of them! You can learn even though it's really hard. You could try to cultivate an aquaintance or friendship you have to become a more meaningful friendship.. or you could try to interact with people you see regularly a bit more often/authentically.... whether that's coworkers or the bus drive.
I worry about people judging me or not liking me allllll the time. I withdraw super quickly each time I feel like that's happened. But I keep retrying and I make a point to talk about easy topics - I honestly DO talk about the weather with people!
I decided to start changing things when I was in highschool. I've always started small and it takes me a long time to get better with things. But I can eat in a restaurant by myself (I am always worried while doing so though!), can attend a movie/theatre solo, I can travel, I can actually ask for help in a store (sometimes) and I can make and attend hair appointments. How silly those all sound, but they were HUGE accomplishments for me. So why not pick something that can be done by yourself that you can work at doing. I found that exposure worked best - repeatedly. Each time I'd do whatever it was, the less anxiety I would feel... even though it never fully goes away.
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"The time has come, the Walrus said, to talk of many things. Of shoes, of ships, of sealing wax, of cabbages, of kings! Of why the sea is boiling hot, of whether pigs have wings..."
"I have a problem with low self-esteem. Which is really ridiculous when you consider how amazing I am.
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