This is my first forum post, so I don't know exactly what to write but here goes. I hate who I have become. I don't know how to fix me. I cry all the time. I can't talk to anyone about it because then I would be going backwards again. I have anger built up and it comes out on the people I love. I hate that. I want to scream. I'm so tired of who I am at this point. I have been on everything, can't do that again. My mind is racing and nothing makes sense when I try to put it into words. For God's sake I am a mother and a wife, I have responsibilities. Why can't I get it together? The facade is wearing thin.