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Originally Posted by ToeJam
Perfectionism on the maladaptive neurotic side.
Now I’ve done some post session reading, it does make sense and I’ve got the bit of something I can at last understand. Of course, it’s still early stages and there might be other stuff we uncover… but it’s nice to make progress and be able to slot things into categories I can work with.
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Discovering even a name is "exciting" in my books. I found that "name" also and was proud of it at first, thought wow, a 'perfectionist', (who doesn't want to be perfect ), but later came to learn it was just something I was trying to keep up and I was exhausted and who was I trying to please? I was becoming more and more depressed. Sure, I was the exemplary, dedicated employee; the employee whom this company wanted, but what was it doing to me? I was spiraling down the ladder to the black hole and ultimately it cost me my career because I just couldn't keep up.
Depression is the shits.