...I did

she was a wonderful woman!...

but I shifted...

I turned a good thing bad...

I have to try an collect my thoughts!
I have to try and justify my actions....

I never let her in!

I am so complicated...

I pretend really well...I can assume the position whatever it is whenever it's needed.....

but my emotional cave is surrounded by mysterious aliens from my personal underworld.....

I watch from my secret unlife...

I see what I adore......

hell!...I wish I fit in...

I wish someone could hold me when I cuddle to sleep...

but I know this will never happen...

I am way too absurd....

all the people in my life ?...

I will never condemn themselves to give me something

...I am too different for that

....my time ?...

...it's too late...

everyone gets a chance...

...I occupy the space that follows...