Not stupid! It is a process. T asked you to read it to be able to see just where you are with it. I'm glad you were able to write it and give it to T. Now he has a good idea of where you are and where you want to be. Letting you read this is a good next step. IMO, it would have been too much for you to have just jumped in talking about it without you being even able to vocalize the issue completely to the T.

Maybe in a session or two, you can come around to focus on this better, and it won't feel so horrible to do so. TC