My sister asked me if i had started SI again. I had been doing better, sometimes going a few months or so without causing myself any harm. But lately, lately its gotten so bad, every day is such a huge struggle, and most days I crack. When she asked me, I looked her straight in the eyes and said no. I trust my sister with everything, but this, this I can't share with her. I'm ashamed. I want to open up to her about it, but I'm afraid of what she'll say. I'm supposed to be the strong one in the family. I know she looks up to me, and to be honest that terrifies me that she even knew about this.