My near fall triggered a panic attack yesterday. Needless to say yesterday was not a good day. Today is not much better. I am lucky if I can stay focused for 10 minutes at a time. I broke down yesterday and used a PRN dose of my meds. I have not needed to do that in over a year.

Part of the fall out from yesterday is that everything seems to trigger a memory from my abuse, the 6 days I spent on the floor before being rescued or a resent event where I had an allergic reaction to flea bites. Everything is like a chain reaction one thing triggers another which triggers something else.

Normally I am able to use my DBT skills or find a distraction to calm me down but today I feel like a Ping Pong Ball in a tournament. Bouncing all over the place.

Any suggestions?