T isnt going to help me .im so sad , devastated .I cant do what she wants me to do .we are back to the I need to speak .I cant I called her and told her I am completely panicked about next week I don't know if I should come if I cant do it . I cant sit in a room so filled with hate. she will now probably put phone restrictions on me because I called her so soon after my session and so upset because I couldn't talk to her. so now I blew the phone contact.