that's just it nothing I said nothing and just as I figured she sat there staring at me probably thinking the most horrible things. finely I said I feel you just hate me so much and are sitting there thinking the most horrible things and are completely disgusted with me, and it was really miserable to be sitting there. she said I could talk. I told her I just did. she said that I was projecting that these feelings are old feelings coming from the mother. but they are not, she oozed hate anger and disgust. she said we have disused this many times before .I don't remember that. she said that we need to do something about this .and talked about making some clowd next week I didn't understand what she meant at all but she said she was not going to bring it up next week if I wanted to talk about it I had to bring it up .why doesn't she want to help me I know im going to sit there and not be able to say anything at all and she is not going to help me at all .im so scared and hurt and don't understand.