PILATUS
(I <font color="purple"> </font> REACH FOR YOUR HAND)

YOU AND I ARE ALIKE, I WASN'T RELATED TO MY ABUSER, MY MUM WAS HAVING AN AFFAIR WITH HIM, HE WAS PART OF OUR FAMILY FOR A LONG TIME THOUGH, MY DAD DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT THE AFFAIR, I DID AND CARRIED THAT GUILT ALSO. IT'S SO HARD, LIKE YOU SAY.WE STRUGGLE ON AND TRY TO DO THE RIGHT THING.

I'VE HAD TWO CHILDREN - OFTEN I WONDER HOW I CAN BE AN ADULT AND A ROLE MODEL TO THEM WHEN I'M JUST A SCARED AND CONFUSED LITTLE GIRL MYSELF. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT? THROUGH IT ALL, EVERYONE TELLS ME WHAT WELL BALANCED AND FANTASTIC KIDS THEY ARE - AND I THINK THEY'RE THE ONLY GOOD TO COME OUT OF ALL THIS MADNESS IN MY LIFE - BECAUSE I AM AWARE OF THE DANGERS AND I PROTECT THEM FIERCELY - FROM JUST ENOUGH DISTANCE AWAY SO AS NOT TO MAKE THEM FEEL BAD OR SCARED. I LOOK ON THIS AS A GOOD THING THAT CAME FROM BAD.

TAKE CARE, IF YOU LIKE WE CAN BE SCARED CHILDREN TOGETHER SOMETIMES...THINKING OF YOU

JINNYANN XXXXXXXX

SMILE THROUGH THE RAIN AND YOU WILL FIND YOUR RAINBOW XXXXX