yeah my therapist seems nice, and quirky in a good way she said she was going to do cbt with me but im not used to talking about anything with anyone so its been weird for me i guess, i do like her though i think she can see where im coming from... i just feel like they are going to think something wrong of me sometimes, like im just a druggy... i guess its the stigmatism..? i dunno, i just be as honest with them about everything i can and hope they believe me, you ever feel like they might be thinking "he just looking for pills" ? or similar thoughts?
my therapist doesnt emphasize on the drugs as much as trying to help me see things differently ithink, and i like it and it helps but i feel like im really really far gone in this black hole of death
im not suicidal or never have been, but im just broken spirited i guess?

i consider myself to be optimistic but a depresed optimist :/

also, i live in central Virignia

i just wish i could go in there and tell him(pdoc) what i think would work for me, but im too scared to, but i read all over the place that people build that type of relationships with their caregivers?

i've been sober for a few weeks too so ive jjust been pretty confused lately..

thanks for the reply, there is still part of a monk in me and i know this too shall pass; just these thorny bushes that have overgrown the pathway are painful

how do i get an emergency med review..?