That's not too uncommon a fetish. Have you ever brought it up in therapy since it bothers you so much?

I, too, suffer from failing to turn thoughts into actions. When that's the case, it might be best to start slowly if you aren't able to throw yourself into a situation, doubting you'll land on your feet. Good things proliferate good. Bad things, bad.

In my dreams I once climbed a mountain. On top there was a mirror where my reflection said he saw only an ant hill and then I was pushed off the edge and told told to grow wings.