My story runs backwards from yours. I was hyper sexual for years, cheated, the whole nine yards and THEN DXed with BP three years ago. The discovery that my hyper sexuality and the ways I *didn't* control it finally made sense. That didn't heal the hurt my husband has endured, however. I'm still not 100% clean, but much better off than I was.
I guess my point is that if you can control it, control it. The pain to your partner is not something easy to live with. I had relief understanding what was wrong with me, but the guilt and distrust and pain never, ever goes away.
And make sure your SO understands this is one of your risky behaviors! Ask him to go to therapy or pdoc with you. After the mistake is made, it's harder for them to accept that this is a (horrid) part of your disorder.
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