it's just amazing how much you tried to build can be shattered within seconds. i'm sick of trying. i don't feel like trying again... i just barely scraped myself out of my crisis but now?

i just feel like crying all the time. i can't seem to concentrate on prepping for tomorrow's exams. and it's the last exam i have to take. but all i want to do is.. just attempt it. it all just feels right; it's like i'm meant to sui in the end.

i was contemplating on making an earlier appt to see pdoc but.. i shall just hang in there for a little bit more.