After a traumatic event in my family I pushed everyone away. Wouldn't call or answer. When I would answer it was such an effort to pretend to care what they had to say. I felt guilt as well and the answer was simple to fix it yet I couldn't do it. So I understand what you're saying. Fortunately by the grace of god or my ability to pick great friends they were all very understanding and we picked up where I left off.

The positive outcome was learning to be with myself. I am much more content alone with my thoughts as a result of shutting friends out and as wrong as it was to do I really do feel more self assured with myself and am grateful. Now had I lost those relationships I may be singing a different tune. Hope this helped.