ive come to realise, i am the only one that has to take care of me first,as if i'm broken, like i am, i have to get help myself first, as ive been in alot of dead end realtionships mostly because of my mental health issues. it sometims scares me to meet new people, even going out of the house scares me, i think im agoriphobic, only because of seizures, etc...and the mental health issues. It is very difficult when we do have mental health issues, Ive been hurt too before by several so called friends, i have nothing to do with them anymore after being betrayed several times before. I also wish i did have more friends but my disability hinders that too. I have a communication problem, anxiety disorders and several other diagnosis. I am schitzoaffective and that also keeps me from socialising.