Wow, I never expected so many good reactions. I know you're right. Well, the biggest problem is my education. I managed to have a bachelor degree, but I got stuck in my master. It's so frustrating. The last 2,5 years I had a severe depression, although better at some moments, and suicidal thoughts that made it almost impossible for me to function. It's weird, because until that time I managed to do okay. I didn't want anyone to know I was feeling so bad, so I isolated myself. It only got worse. I found myself a psychiatrist, but he didn't really knew what was going on with me. I didn't trust him entirely. So, I only got pills. After a year I crashed and hospitalized. Then this diagnosis came out. Now it's back to pills and waiting for therapy.

I can't imagine people choosing the life of AvPD. Is horrible. For me, education and a good job are important. But the social part is getting me too anxious, although I want to be social. It keeps me ruminating a lot.