You're right - you make a good point on that
I've been on medications for a year this month, although, it's still a game of Roulette to finding something that will work for me. It seemed random 2-3 years ago. Just suddenly something snapped. I started to lose emotion and stopped caring about things. It became a major struggle to stay in any of my usual activities which were minimal already. I guess I started to become a bit zombie-like so to speak. It just didn't matter if I was being followed or if I meant anything in this world so even if I was being watched it didn't matter anymore because of how apathetic I became. Since then it's been a bit fluctuating, every so often it kinda pops up again for anything between a few hours and a couple days, maybe couple weeks. So not sure if I'm healed or not of that particular thing, I guess which is part of my concern... didn't even realize that until now.