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so thanks to MKAC holding my hand (she is amazing) I have now 2 appointments with possible new T's .yup I am freaking out but I am so hurt by my T . I don't want to leave her I did trust her some but she forgot she even saw me last week .I tell her something that took me almost 4 years to tell her and all she said the next session is well its been a few weeks sense ive seen you  .I never felt so unimportant in my life and what I had to say was so unimportant she didn't even remember seeing me. I need to at least be remembered |
I just want to reiterate that this failure of memory (or whatever it was) is NOT YOUR FAULT. Your T effed up, and who knows why.
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I am so beside myself with grief and anger and disbelief. the things that are going through me head are horrible . my whole life I have been expendable and unimportant .I cant believe that it is the same for a person who I pay to at least listen to me . go I wish I could change who I am. im am disgusting
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No, no no you are not disgusting. I am so sorry this triggered all those awful feelings from your childhood.
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the T I really wanted sent me an e-mail saying practice is full. and so it begins
sent out an e-mail to another one. I just wish my insurance company would not say they are accepting new clients if they are not
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I think it is hard for the insurance company to keep up on individual therapists and if/when there practices are full
You are so brave, because I have one foot and mostly two out of therapy, and I don't think I could be so brave to try another one.
Keep posting here, you are doing SO WONDERFUL.