I like to give you a huge hug for trying to turn your life around.Its wonderful that you are acknowledging that things need to change. Im now 60 and wish I had of had the courage to do something about my problems when I was as young as you are. I know I wouldve had a much happier life for myself and for my family.Instead ive only recently sort help as I wouldnt acknowledge I had a problem. Part of my OCD is hoarding and my kids hated bringing friends home.So Honey I wish you all the very best and wish to say Im here for you should you ever need to chat with someone who understands. Gai