((((((((kris))))))))))

i guess rationally i know i should call someone. i just don't feel veyr rational. and i have no privacy where i am now, and don't want anyone to overhear me. i might call someone this morning, as i have to take one of the cars out to be inspected. i have suicide numbers programmed into my cell phone as my last T suggested.

I'm always so scared to call, though. we'll see.