I feel the same way about my father however I don't think it is right for me to keep him in my life. I was able to channel some of the anger that I had for my dad into strenuous manual labor. Though I still feel angry toward him, it felt good to process and chip away at some of it. I did end up lashing out at him over facebook messages and I feel terrible about it because I know he feels bad about what he did to us but at the same time I felt justified because he is an adult and has no right to do what he did to the people he loved. Now I go running listening to heavy music almost every day and I think it rids me of the excess baggage.