Do you ever find it disappointing when your T comes back from holidays? Mine has been gone for 3 weeks. I was so happy about seeing her today. And then it felt like we were strangers. Before she left, we were so close and she was so empathic. Maybe over the course of so much time, and going through really hard stuff over the holidays... she becomes more ideal in my mind?

She seemed so positive and upbeat today and not as validating. It's probably me too. I go into my coping mode and really shut down while she's gone... and then I can't just let her back in that easily when she comes back. Somehow I imagined I would tell her all the things I've been wanting to say, but I couldn't. She tells me to give it time, wait another week. But it sucks after waiting so long.