My therapist's first name is Madalyn. I see her every Monday @ 1pm for the most part. This Monday she really pissed me off because she accussed me of not being honest with her during that session. When I had just finished telling her that I had been suicdal as well as homicidal the Sunday before. I told her that I had considered seriously giving my daughter up due to financial problems. I told her that I had had a fit of anger and threw a glass bottle and smashed it to bits and then I threw a box of cereal all over the kitchen. Then I went into the car by myself and just sat there trying to calm down so I could go to church but I was just to pissed off to drive anywhere safely so I came back in the house slamming every door possible. Then she asked me all of the main questions like if I was safe now and if I would try to committ suicide with the car and a bunch of other stupid questions that I guess she had to ask.
But then she comes out of her face saying that I am not being honest with her. I said " what the hell are you talking about I just told you that i was suicidal & homicidal and to angry to drive safely, thinking of giving up my kid,what else do you want me to tell you?"
She says well I don't know how your system works and I don't think you are being honest about that part of you. Well I started to laugh. she asked me what was so funny? And I said that I would rather not say. She gave me permission to say anything that was on my mind so I called her a prying *****. To my surprise she was happy with that because she said at least it was honest like if nothing else I said during the session was honest. That pissed me off too.
I don't know what she wants me to tell her. how can I tell her how my system works if it is a mystery to me. All I know is that I have D.I.D. and she is a specialist in the field why do I have to tell her what I don't know myself. Isn't she suppossed to help me to understand my sytem so we can find out together how it works. If I knew the answers why would I need her. She wanted me to tell the phychiarist what I told her but my appointment was yesterday and we had a snow storm so they cancelled my appointment until next month. She asked me to stay in touch with her by e-mail but right now I don't have anything to say to her.
If anyone can relate to my frustrations with Madalyn please message me or pm me.
Thanks for listening.

Sincerely
Evie