HI WHOEVER WANTS TO LISTEN.....

I'VE BEEN FEELING LOW FOR A FEW MONTHS.OFF WORK WITH DEPRESSION. THE WAY I FEEL, I'LL NEVER GO BACK. DOC PUT ME ON PROZAC 4 WEEKS AGO, CIPRIMIL STOPPED WORKING FOR ME. EVER SINCE I'VE BEEN TERRIBLE, NOT SLEEPING, REALLY DOWN AND SOBBING ONE MINUTE WITH A MASSIVE KNOT IN MY STOMACH, THEN ABSOLUTELY HYPER, BOUNCING OFF WALLS, SHAKING, FEELING GIDDY OR SWIMMY.TONIGHT I FEEL REALLY DOWN AGAIN. I KNOW I SHOULD GO BACK TO DOCS, BUT THEY TOLD ME TO GIVE THE MED 4 - 6 WEEKS. I WILL GO BACK, TOMORROW I THINK. THIS AFTERNOON I WAS SO HIGH, EVEN VENTURED OUTSIDE TO WALK THE DOG! I FEEL LIKE NO-ONE UNDERESTANDS, EVEN THINK THEY THINK I'M EXAGGERATING. I ONLY SEE A THERAPIST, WAITING LIST IN UK IS 2 YEARS TO SEE PDOC. MUM OFFERED TO PAY FOR ME TO GO PRIVATELY, BUT SHE'S A BIG PART OF MY PROBLEM FROM THE PAST AND I FEEL TOO GUILTY TO LET HER PAY FOR IT.

SUCH IS LIFE EH? I THINK I LOST A FRIEND TODAY, FROM THIS SITE, HE'S NOT COMING BACK AND THAT REALLY UPSETS ME BECAUSE HE IS IN PAIN.

JIN