Kabuto - welcome to Psych Central. Your situation may feel bleak but there are a lot of positives. You've graduated from college and you have insight into who you are, what you like and don't like, and where you limitations might be. If your gut says AmeriCoprs sounds like too large a commitment, then it probably is. You may have to give some on the job issue, though, and take something initially that wouldn't necessarily be your favorite choice.

Here is something I have learned with age and experience - frequently the way isn't clear but if I can get up some momentum with SOMETHING, then the path starts to become clearer and the big picture comes into focus. The first real job I had was not what I ended up doing later in life (thank goodness!). Thinking too far ahead can be detrimental to what you need to do in the present.

Your hobbies sound neat. I have a friend who sings in a community choir and loves it. It gets her out, too.