thanks for all the support especially to my lurker MKAC I know you see this (hugs).I have some direction and hope mixed in with all this miserableness. god I hope it does not take years for me to be able to talk to a new T. anyway I have bunches of stuff to do today I have a class this morning a craft thing this evening and inbetween I have to pack and clean because we are heading to NY tomorrow morning until Monday to visit the inlaw .I come back Monday night and see my T Tuesday .then new T's wednsday and Thursday. got to get some laundary done