Last week I was at my lowest, just did not want to be here or anywhere- did not want to live any more or didn't have any will to live.
T has seen me like this before and been great but this last week was different. She was dismissive, distant, distracted and to be honest did not want to be there with me.
I was telling her about my current situation with my abusive ex being back at work and it was taking all of my strength to hold myself together in front of her and t just changes the subject completely. She just dismissed what I said and changed the subject to what she wants to talk about which has been my counselling course. She has been leading my sessions in this direction for a very long time now and I am beyond frustrated. The correct thing to do would be to leave and find a new t but the thoughts of starting all over again is daunting.
We are thought in our course to be assertive and ask for what I want but I am conflicted with t because if I confront her and ask her not to do this she will be discussing topics she does not want to talk about and I know she will be fake and not real or caring about me.Any advice appreciated- thnks