
Jan 16, 2014, 11:58 AM
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Member Since: Nov 2013
Location: in a sanctuary of relaxation
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Originally Posted by purplegiraffe1
So, I have started this semester off to a great start, i'm aheaad of schoolwork, been incredibly productive despite some events that have happend recently. I went the entire1st week of classes without sleeping AT ALL . simply because no matter what i did, i couldn't rid myself of all this GREAT energy i had. I felt like Superwoman, like i could do everything in the world witho9ut any bad happening to me, and nothing could destroy me or my happiness. Well, I called a lady (an "auntlike" figure to me)at 2 in the morning simply to tell her all that i had accomplished that "night" (midnight hour and 1am.) and i ended uptalking to her for an hour nonstop telling her about how i moved all my furniture out of my dorm and into the halway, then swept and took out all the trash in our suite,rearanged my room, redid my calendar and many other things i'll spare you the details of. Well, later on, she mesaged me saying that she had read my posts on fb, and the texts i was sending her, as well as the tons of voicemails i left, and she told me that she really believed i was sufering from a "manic" episode based of her experience with her bipolar husband, and that she was realy concerned because of the lack of sleep i was getting and that she didnt want me to go into a deep depression. I told her i was fine, and that i would not go into a depression. The next week however, i did. and thne i felt super guilty because i felt i had "lied" to her. and then my best friend wasn't responding to my texts or calls and i freaked out on him thinking something was wrong,(there was, he was in the hospital.) and I even thought he was mad at me. So, i called my aunt and apologised to her and told her goodbye. Well, now all of a sudden i've seem to have gotten back to the no sleep for me mode, and from what my room mates and friends have said,,,. I'm reaally quite scared. I'm afraid of hurting someone like i did last time i was like this. Anyone know of something i can do that might lessen the chances i would hurt someone?
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When you say, "hurt someone" do you mean mentally, emotionally, physically? That's where I am a little confused. If you mean by calling folks in the middle of the night b/c you're having an episode, I don't think it's that bad. The "aunt" figure seems to have compassion, since she is married to a no, and can see the signs. I am newly diagnosed so take this as you may. I would get into a group therapy session or see your therapist. Maybe meds or a med change can help you out. I think we ALL understand the manic parts, they happen.
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