Ok so during my therapy session today my therapist and I talked a lot about my fear of failing and things like that. Here's an excerpt:

T: how would you feel if that happened? What would you do? Would you kill yourself?
Me: I would probably feel like dying, yes. I mean, I wouldn't do it but I'd really hate myself and I'd probably want to die.
T: then maybe you should just do it? Perhaps you should kill yourself?
Me: no.

His tone of voice suggested that he was being serious but that he didn't mean what he said (at least I think so). He does that a lot and a lot of the time I don't know if he's serious or not (in this case I think it's quite obvious he didn't mean it, since I doubt any sane therapist would encourage their client to take their own life). Anyway, is this some sort of legitimate method he's decided to use to make me realise how ridiculous (or whatever he thinks) my thoughts are or what? I don't get it. It puzzles me. It sort of makes it seem like he doesn't take me seriously all the time and I think it makes it seem like he belittles my thoughts.

What do you think?