Thank you everyone for the replies.
I'm sorry that so many find themselves in the same type of situation.
Hvert, you asked if the relationship was ever more balanced; after some thought I realize that it really never was. I met and became friends with her at a psych hospital-- bad idea. I think I was just so low and lonely then I just overlooked some things that I shouldn't have.
I guess the sort of last straw was when she admitted to me recently that she had only been in the hospital with me because she had heard from others that she could say that she was suicidal and have a place to stay. She was not willing to go to some sort of shelter. She told me that she doesn't really believe in psychiatry and meds. It was just a means to an end.
It really ticked me off that she had sat in on so many groups listening to people spill their guts, and all the while she was really just mocking.
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