I'm working on trying be myself around people. Here is the dilemma:

I think the more I am myself, the more I end up hurting people, naturally. I just don't agree with people nor do I want to take part in most of what people do with their lives. So, in that scenario, I stop pretending and I tell people how I really feel. I get what I need for my mental health but it has the consequence of hurting people, losing friendships, perhaps even losing my job, and creating what most people would agree is an unhealthy lifestyle for myself.

Or,

I could continue as I usually do and be a people pleaser. That way no one gets hurt other than me, as far as I can tell, and at least this way I am doing my best to care for others. But it is extremely trying and requires me to lie and go through varying degrees of inner turmoil on a regular basis.

So far I have decided I want to work at finding a balance between the two but that balance seems to be imaginary. What do you think?