I would completely rather not have bipolar. It has ruined my life several times. I just feel that I would've done so much more in my life. I would've probably went to a better college and gotten a basketball scholarship, but I went crazy my senior year of high school and quit everything. I only applied to 2 colleges cause I was so depressed. I wouldn't have lost my accounting job and maybe would've moved up in the corporation. I wouldn't have to take so many meds that have fried my brain. My memory would be great, b/c I always had a great memory until the meds. I hate the bipolar and it just seems to get worse as I get older. It's sad when my New Year's resolution is to not have to be hospitalized more than 2 times.