Just wanted to say thank you to everyone who responded to my original post in this thread. I'm still a bit confused and unsure about things, even how to post on this site, but am coming back together. I don't know much about anything except that I do believe I have the right to a good life same as everyone else, and this is a good place for comfort, support and to learn we are never alone in our pain. Sharing helps so much. I am trying to learn not to isolate myself, which I do the most when my life is upside down and the pain is the worst. I know though, only I can help myself, but the wonderful folks who responded you all helped so very much.