I'm with you both Darkeyes and Emily. I am so tired of feeling like this and being scared. I just posted to Dexster a few days ago that I don't even know who i am anymore. Since i'm still fairly new here and I can't remember things well, what are your stories? Is the depression new, have you done it before? How long? I'm thinking of you both and know that I understand the grieving. I am sorry for your pain.