Because its a problem I can't solve----none of it makes any sense and to me its a big scientific puzzle and I keep thinking I'll find the next critical clue either to the cause or the solution. I know there are people out there who are much smarter than me working on it but they don't exactly have the first hand experience to sort out some of the garbage. Like when I read the bitterest pills its written by a British psychiatrist who gives a lot of background on AP development and how horrible they are but she makes it seems like they might not work at all but they clearly do for a percentage of people so nothing is ever simple....