DG, You are so close to your period of Trauma that It is normal. You were probably Numb at first. Right now Talking to pdoc and foster parents is very important. Don't worry about your "dad", he can't hurt you where he is at. Concentrate on helping yourself. You are the victim here. Let others help you as well. One of my responsabilities as "e-dad" is to help you in your recovery effort. Listen when you need to talk. Find the answers for you if I don't know them. Your Foster Parents, pdoc, e-dad, and e-mom Jinn, are all links in a chain that will help pull you to safety. We are here for support. Here to listen. Here to comfort. Here to Help. We all want nothing more than to see you happy again. We are here for you anytime you need us.