Granite, dear. I hurt inside for you. My post wasn't directed at you either. I have read about your situation and the stuff you posted yesterday rendered me speechless. All I felt I could do for you was give you the biggest hug possible, which is what I would have done had I could see you in person and if you let me.

You have been through so much in your life, My mind cannot conceive it. A T doesn't have to have been through what you have to be able to empathize. I like my T's new mission statement: "Helping you find your path to wholeness and healing."

There are 2 key things in that statement. One is something that I don't know that your T could do for you. "Helping YOU find YOUR path." I don't understand why your T cannot let YOU express yourself as YOU want to. It's YOUR path to healing.

The second pertains to my understanding of what my T meant when she said "You can only take someone as far as you've been." That is "healing and wholeness." Right now, I am not whole. There is still stuff from my past keeping me from living as a whole person. Being whole doesn't mean perfect; whole people still have triggers and issues and behave badly. But the holes that are created in our hearts when we are hurt so deeply are patched.

I was thrilled with the fact I talked about my biggest "thing" and the world didn't end. In fact, it was received with understanding, empathy, and lack of judgment. Came with a hug at the end, so still touchable too.

Granite, thanks for being classy enough to be happy for me, even when reading my post hurt.