I do that too...I don't deserve to eat that good food, and I'll start to restrict. Not to any harmful level, but it is unhealthy. I do have an NOS eating disorder though, apparently. Or I will isolate from others as a form of punishment, feeling like I don't deserve to have fun, etc. I'm sorry that you are having a rough time, let me know if there is anything I can do.

I am not this hair, I am not this skin. I am the soul that lives within.

Prozac 40mg, Neurontin 400 mg TID, Remeron 45mg

depression, anxiety, borderline, social phobia, ed nos, self injury.