Thank you Sky.

A topic in therapy? Not with this one since she doesn't want to talk.

I called yesterday to cancel today's appointment. I needed more time to think. The receptionist said I was saving her a call, as the doc is out sick yet/again. 3 Fridays in a row now. I'm so sorry she is sick and I can't do therapy on my own. I need someone more available and who will talk with me, so I am going to move on.

I received a referral from a psychoanalytic institute yesterday and will call and check that person out today.

I hate starting over again. It's tiring, exhausting, and it's making me want to give up.

I want a therapist I can count on and who I feel is there for me. Reading Mouse's thread about intimacy and affirmations in therapy sounds like something I'd like to have but never have.

Wish me luck with this one.