After over a year clean I relapsed. I was so happy to be clean for so long, it was inspirational. I got so many loving responses to my progress here on pc and now I feel like I've let all of you down, as well as myself. I don't understand why I gave in, it's been so long since I've had am urge that bad and I don't even know what triggered it. I feel shameful, like I did something horrible, irreversible. I feel like I'm starting to fall apart again, like all the progress I've made is gone, and the person I became is gone as well. I don't know what to do.