Ohhh man, I feel the same way. I haven't started properly yet but A. told me to visualise what I want from him helping me and to imagine what it'd be like but.. When I did that I thought, he's going to abandon me too soon. I need on going support because I have conditions that are life long and will never be cured. But, he seems to be already making me think about going back to once every 3 months or once a year. Problem is I don't feel like thinking about.. I feel like I need on going support. It's not scary thinking about it, it just makes me think i'll be alone again if he decides that I need to see him less often and that means going back to struggling.