Yeah....so I actually suggested we might need to plan terminating soon when I saw T last night. I was feeling fine and pretty good and reflecting on some positive things that have happened in my life lately. I just feel I'm making some significant progress. BUT if I'm brutally honest with myself, I am having a hard time holding just what you said about what is T's plan for this therapy and is he going to end it before I want to end it. Holding that unknown is hard for me and I think it's easier to take what I've gotten from therapy and plan to leave with it being all in my control yeah, I know that sounds wimpy.

I just really like my T and I'd be devastated if he terminated me out of the blue. I'm trying to decide if I want to move on to the next level of my exploration (I guess maybe like in a video game) or if I want to quit while I'm ahead.

Have you asked your T about his agenda or whatnot? I asked mine but it didn't satisfy me /: maybe there is no way to satisfy me because it's not like he can be there for me forever.