Hi everyone. I have not been diagnosed yet, but I'm thinking I might have some form of bipolar or something similar to it. I have major mood swings, going from anger, depression and paranoia to hypomania (the less sever form of mania I think). I suffer from major paranoia issues, thinking my phone and car are bugged, there are cameras in my house, people are talking about me and people are just out to get me. My hypomaniacal moods aren't so bad. Good, even. I feel invincible and everything that wasn't interesting before, fascinates me. I want to spend money and do drugs and have sex. It's like I think without consequence or something. I don't make a lot of money and one time I spent $200 at the mall on stuff I didn't need, just because. Sometimes when I wake up, I'll think I'm dead. This occurs sometimes during the day too but usually goes away in a little bit. My mood swings change hourly or daily. If I'm having a high mood swing, I am aware I will crash soon.this is putting strains on my relationships and friendships, but I don't want to take medicine. I don't want to load up on a bunch of pills to fix my problems. Im just looking for advice, suggestions and ideas about how to handle this. Thanks for your time!

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