feeling.. down. weepy actually, for the better word.

the good thing is that suicidal thoughts is not as intense. and i also completed my finals. the last paper was ok.. though i was having an intense battle with self during the paper i managed to finish it. also had a call yesterday for a job interview with a pharmaceutical company. hoping i can get the job so that i'll get experience before i start my school sprint. so that's three ups, i guess.

i got the form by email and seeing the question "do you have any illness, psychiatric conditions etc" (yes its legal in my country to ask; almost everyone asks it...) made me nervous again. what happened earlier this week still scares me. i don't know. i don't know whether i should declare it.