There is a huge degree of nebulousness to therapy that you have to come to peace with.

Rather than focusing on the end of this journey, why not focus on the road that you have to journey to get to your destination. You can even be a bit (or even a lot) lost on the road still trying to find your bearings. On a road you can only see to the horizon at most. You see what is right ahead of you, but not beyond.

Try to just stay on the road as best you can. Your T can help you perhaps see where you might want to end up, but how long it will take you to get there will depend on factors that can't be predicted necessarily. That's okay.